Monthly Archives: December 2015

So glad you were born




La Belle was born on 12 December in a happy golden year and that was the day his future bliss was created.

Then a small miracle happened nine years ago when his joys were rare and hurried like the torrents of spring, when he felt such weariness of body and soul. “Taedium vitae” and disgust for his solitary life

Mid of this unhappiness and with a chance media contact he saw her name and shortly after that he read her first gem – she said “a smile is nature’s best antidote for discouragement. It brings rest to the weary, sunshine to those who are sad, and hope to those who are hopeless and defeated. So if someone is too tired or grumpy to flash you a smile, let him have one of yours anyway. Nobody needs a smile as much as the person who has none to give.”

A few weeks later she said: Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier. Then she wrote “the best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched, but are felt in the heart” – and how wrong she was – because the moment he saw her, his life transformed.

He has never been a lucky guy so he did not believe his fortunes when they first touched hands – on a beach, barely discernable in the twilight; her hello confident, her smile charming, her movements divine; full of soft and seductive charm. Fascinated and enchanted, he knew the first instant this beautiful creature will change his life!

Before that fateful day, he always thought he was independent and did not need anyone. He preferred to stay anonymous to avoid commitments. It was easy and he succeeded for a while until the moment they met and he felt she needed him.

Enquiring how she was shortly after their acquaintance, her answer: “I am very well thanks….still flying and feel glowing……..Let’s go for the walk tomorrow…..I’ll call you tomorrow morning.”

His first thought was that young people do foolish things but so do adults! If they can do what seemed impossible only days earlier then it’s a blessing.

Fast forward and the years seemed like fleeting moments. Life was gay, fun and pure joy. There was music, laughter, poetry and love. Those were the nicest, most delightful and charming times of his whole life – times of happiness and divine bliss. He is not a religious man and still he thought someone must have designed all this!

As every few years he realized what an asshole he was a few years earlier, he decided this time will be different; and in spite of his efforts, she could still see his solitude, as there were no clear routes for them to stay together. He hoped to find a way, a small miracle perhaps. So many things to do still and places to visit – a waltz in Vienna, a swim in Barbados, a visit to the Hermitage, a climb in Tibet. But those were not to be. She always had the right answers – and make no mistake – her answers were filled with wisdom and love.

To try and avoid unhappy endings, she started to build a wall around her life to prove and make sure he cannot be part of it; but she never completely succeeded.

Sometimes, it is very hard to know which bridges to cross and which to burn. This time it was easy – the bridges burned and came falling down against all odds – and this fateful November life came to a standstill. She left but refused to say goodbye. She said there are no goodbyes on her agenda. She shared “Hello” with him when she meant goodbye. She meant to wish him peace and a tranquil spirit; she meant they will meet again, though she realized how unlikely such a meeting was…

He will not attempt to describe his feelings during their last exchange. For such feelings it is futile to try and find satisfactory words. So what now! Will he find a place with no memory! Go live on a beach somewhere – they say the sea has no memory. Will he travel the world for peace and solitude! And what good will that do when she already told him years earlier “a man is not where he lives but where he loves.”

On the day she left he was dazed and speechless. It is rumored he could only wish her well, also asked her to enjoy her walks in the forests this autumn. It is also rumored he asked her to call him when she’s lonely – because times come and go; his love stays forever.


For new beginings


for the good times

if only there was one day